I suppose, if I am honest, that I am 3 times less beautiful than I was yesterday. What has changed since yesterday? I have had three very prominent beauty spots (moles) removed from my face, which since I am being honest, still has more than its fair share in place.
I am one of those ‘lucky’ people who have lots of black/dark brown spots all over my face & upper body, that are apparently supposed to make me feel beautiful. I have had my spots most of my life and they have grown with me. As I am now at a certain age and a sensible person I regularly have them checked by a specialist in case they turn nasty and change into a skin cancer. (I am confident that all mine are doing is stopping me from feeling beautiful!) My specialist suggested a while ago that it was easy to remove them if they were bothering me too much. I poopooed that idea saying that they are a part of who I am, I’ve had them all my life etc etc. But the more that I thought about it the more that I wondered how different would I be, if they were gone from my face once and for all?
Upon speaking to my sister & a few close friends it seems that people don’t even notice them, or so they say, and see only ‘me’. I don’t believe this but it does make me feel a bit better whenever I look at my own face. I was never teased at school or through my adolescence and only a few times have I been questioned by a precocious child as to ‘what are all those spots on your face?’ So maybe if was just me who saw them as ugly.
The procedure was extremely quick, relatively painless and with no stitches to leave a replacement scar of its own. I have three spots still but they will clear up in a few days and hopefully will be just as if I had grazed my skin and had the scab fall off after a few days.
One of my daughters was aghast when I said I was thinking of removing them. You see, I always told my daughters that they were my beauty spots and the more I had the more beautiful I was. She reminded me of this although I seem to have forgotten imparting this piece of wisdom. She doesn’t know what I have done yet and I won’t tell her, I’ll wait to see if she notices any difference.
So it remains to be seen if I am 3 times less beautiful than yesterday. I will be the judge of that in a few days and if all else fails, if I am honest, I know that true beauty comes from within.