A Sentence a Day for January: A time to focus and a time to grieve


January – in a Sentence a Day

The awful part of January

January has been a hard month with the passing of my father, so bear with me if my later days of the month are a bit light on. I debated about whether to even finish this draft post but decided to continue on, as I will one day look back on this time without the current fog that surrounds it.

The not so awful part of January

January, for some, is when you go back to work after a lovely long summer holiday. Luckily for me now that I’m a retiree, heading into my second year of retirement,  I no longer have to worry about that sinking ‘back to work’ feeling!

I do however consider my blog as a form of ‘work’, so I set myself a word for the year, which I decided was FOCUS.

I wrote this post early in the month announcing my ‘word’, the back story and my plans for the year ahead.

Focus is my word for 2018

Focus is my word for 2018

The next big thing to happen in January was the Mathematician and I celebrating our 38th wedding anniversary and just days later suddenly my focus changed to something else entirely.

Read on:

  1. Monday: A quiet day spent at home while the annual New Year’s Day Rodeo raged on in downtown Tumbarumba without me – I’ve lived here for 27 years and have never been to this annual event. I’m not sure if I’m proud of myself or disgusted!!
  2. Tuesday: A getting organised day, looking at travel plans, blogging updates…
  3. Wednesday: A Domestic Goddess Day today with washing, ironing, vacuuming, cleaning, sorting…..
  4. Thursday: Another beautiful day and the water in the pool for our Aqua Aerobics session was 27 degrees celcius!!
  5. Friday: Just your average day – a quick bike ride to town, coffee with friends, an EARTHQUAKE in the afternoon, dinner and movie out with friends and 42 degrees celsius on the temperature gauge.A HOT day in Australia in January 2017
  6. Saturday: Super Saturday – another hot day so we started out with an early morning 20km ride with the Saturday Social Cycle group, then coffee and a chat followed by an evening out with friends.
  7. Sunday: One of the hottest days on record, we were into the mid 40 degrees celcius temps, but despite the heat we had a busy day with an 18th birthday lunch, then dinner with friends.
  8. Monday: Our Rotary Club resumed for the year, it was good to catch up at our first dinner meeting for 2018 –  we have lots happening this year!
  9. Tuesday: Cooler weather with some storms around, worked on our travel plans to Europe – hoping to go away in May for a few months.
  10. Wednesday: Hair appointment and a new shorter stylish ‘do’,  followed by helping a friend with computer work.
  11. Thursday: A GOOD day – on the way into town I passed a horse and buggy, watched kids inside inflatable balls playing soccer on the oval, had coffee with a friend, went to aqua aerobics, enjoyed watching the little ones doing swimming lessons and remembering my daughters doing similar classes, read my book, talked to my sister on the phone about her recent trip to Europe and watched a great game of tennis on TV!

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  12. Friday: Our 38th wedding anniversary! A delicious breakfast cooked by the Mathematician on the bbq, a chat with my mother on the phone, lots of messages for our anniversary especially as I put up some old photos on Facebook,  then a trip to a cafe for morning tea with friends, followed by a pleasant afternoon walk, a shower of rain which cooled everything down.
  13. Saturday: A wet morning so no Social Saturday ride but we still met for coffee and a chat followed by a relaxing afternoon at home.
  14. Sunday: A very cool day compared to recent weather, sometimes you just need lazy day.
  15. Monday: Aqua aerobics session, a relaxing day and worrying news from my mother about my father’s health late that night.
  16. Tuesday: Very concerned about my father especially as the doctors advised my mother to inform the family of the severity of his condition.  I booked a flight for the next day.
  17. Wednesday: My husband drove me to Wagga Wagga to catch the flight to Queensland, my mother picked me up and we went straight to see Dad. I was very upset to see him just lying there, sedated and gravely ill.
  18. Thursday: Started the day with a walk on the beach with my mother and my brother and then visiting with dad.
  19. Friday: Another morning walk along the beach, a drive to collect some things for mum at her home nearby and later that evening my sister arrived.
  20. Saturday: Two of my daughters, and their husbands, arrived to offer their support for us at this sad time, to see their beloved grandad – and to give their grandma a big hug.  It was so good to have them with us. holding hands
  21. Sunday: A walk along the beach, breakfast at a cafe, a visit to some of dad’s favourite places and watching tennis on TV, in between visiting dad. My daughter and son-in-law left for home and my sister flew home too, only to return the next day.
  22. Monday: My husband arrived today and it was great to finally have him with me. My sister returned and we sat with dad on and off through the day and into the night.
  23. Tuesday: The nursing staff are so caring towards all of us as we sit with dad – we play his favourite music, sit quietly with him or talk to him depending on how we feel.  Dad lies peacefully, fading day by day.
  24. Wednesday: Another emotionally exhausting day as we took it in turns to sit with Dad. Two of my nephews came to visit and provided a lovely distraction for us all.
  25. Thursday: A sad day as my father passed away this afternoon.
  26. Friday: Australia Day, but we didn’t feel like celebrating.
  27. Saturday: Sitting around reminiscing and making plans.
  28. Sunday: I really don’t know what I did but probably more of the same. I wrote my thoughts in this post – Thoughts on losing my father – as writing always seems to help me cope.
  29. Monday: Making funeral plans is exhausting. Writing Dad’s story, finding photos, planning who to speak, readings, choosing songs and music…all the while grieving.
  30. Tuesday: The Mathematician’s birthday but it wasn’t all that much fun for him unfortunately as we had a visit from the celebrant, a visit to the crematorium and then a rush to get photos to the funeral directors for the service on Friday.
  31. Wednesday: We decided to give ourselves a break from funeral planning and went to Kingscliff beach where we swam, stand up paddle boarded and had lunch out with old family friends. It was just what we all needed!sunshine on my shoulders

Well that was January, a very hard month for my whole family.

As I write this relatives are starting to arrive for dad’s funeral on Friday 2 February.  My three daughters, one from England, my sister’s 5 children from all over Australia, my brother’s daughter and grandchildren many hours drive away, my aunt from UK, mum’s brother and niece and many other friends and family. It’s lovely to have everyone around.

Yes we were sad and the tears flowed but we were fortunate to be together. We shared memories, laughed at old photos, learnt new perspectives of old stories, supported each other, hugged, cried, and talked. And we drank tea, LOTS of tea!!

Some days were so utterly exhausting, I have no idea how we managed to get through them, but we did.

I have been totally overwhelmed by the messages of love and concern that I’ve received from family, friends, and the lovely people in my blogging community. Thank you one and all.

(I enjoy participating in this link up every month.  Click on the blue frog to view other posts and to add your link)

Deb xx

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  One thought on “A Sentence a Day for January: A time to focus and a time to grieve

  1. February 4, 2018 at 12:19 pm

    Beautiful post Deb. I know you’re going to be glad you wrote this in the future. Thanks for sharing the month, particularly the grief-stricken days towards the end of it. Enjoy the time with extended family…even though they’ve arrived for such a sad time. Love will get you through.

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    • February 7, 2018 at 6:15 pm

      Thanks Linda, it was hard and I don’t think I’ve captured the days very well but I’m glad I made an effort. We have had an absolute ball with our families despite the sad circumstances, love has certainly got us through so far. X

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  2. February 4, 2018 at 12:29 pm

    A very hard month for you Deb but you got through and you will be so glad you recorded everything – the good and the not so good for the month. My thoughts and love are with you all and I’m sending a huge hug xx

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    • February 7, 2018 at 6:13 pm

      Thanks for all your care and support Sue, during this hard time. You’ve been so caring 💕

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  3. Retirement Reflections
    February 4, 2018 at 4:02 pm

    This is a very beautiful and touching post. Thinking of you and your family, Deb. Sending warm virtual hugs to each of you!

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    • February 7, 2018 at 6:12 pm

      Thanks so much Donna, it was hard to write but I’m glad I made an effort to capture my days honestly.

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  4. February 4, 2018 at 6:41 pm

    I hope that you find writing therapeutic during this sad time. A sentence a day book should capture all of our days, the joys and the sorrows. Take care.

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    • February 7, 2018 at 6:11 pm

      Thanks Ruth, you are right. We need to capture the highs and lows of life if we are being true to ourselves.

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  5. February 4, 2018 at 9:39 pm

    Debbie, it is great that you have blogging as a release to all those feelings that arise when you lose someone you love. Nothing surer in life than death and taxes!!! I find it interesting how different cultures treat/react to the process of grieving. Such an individual process and so are our memories. Here’s to the pain easing and to be left with happy memories of you and your Dad. x

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    • February 7, 2018 at 6:11 pm

      Thanks so much for your kind words and thoughtful advice Suz. Nearly home again now, so that will be the first big step. Leaving Mum was hard but I’ll be back up with her within a month, with my brother and sister so she’s looking forward to that already.

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  6. February 5, 2018 at 1:06 am

    Sending warmest hugs and heartfelt sympathy to you Debbie. So very hard to lose the ones we love. Your presence such a gift to your parents but so painful too. Thank you for sharing the day by day journey.

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    • February 6, 2018 at 12:07 pm

      Thanks Sue, it’s been a hard month for us all. I’ve missed reading all about your latest trip but I’ll get to read it soon. Xx

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  7. February 5, 2018 at 1:45 am

    It surely was a very tough month. Family and friends sure make a difference at such times. 🌼

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    • February 6, 2018 at 12:06 pm

      They do indeed! I’ve had so much support from so many people, some of whom I’ve never even met. It’s very humbling. ❤️

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  8. Jodie
    February 5, 2018 at 2:08 am

    I’m so sorry about your dad, Deb. It’s such a hard part of life, but how nice that your family and friends have been there for you.
    And congrats on the anniversary….what a great s\part of life.
    XOXO
    Jodie
    http://www.jtouchofstyle.com

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    • February 6, 2018 at 12:05 pm

      That’s so kind of you to say Jodie. Thanks for your understanding and yes I love having my family and friends around xx

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  9. February 6, 2018 at 10:57 am

    What a month! And yes, you will be pleased you wrote this in years (days/months) to come.
    Very pleased that we were all together to share the final part of the month as a family. Also very pleased that we have such an amazing family!

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    • February 6, 2018 at 12:01 pm

      I am glad I finished writing the post although it was very hard to do so. I agree with you about our amazing family and how we managed together!!

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  10. February 7, 2018 at 1:02 pm

    Writing this through a few tears of my own Deb as you recounted the month and the days leading to your dad’s passing. Thank you for sharing your journey. Family, friends and writing is a godsend at times like this. Sending you a big hug. ❤️🙏

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    • February 7, 2018 at 6:08 pm

      I didn’t mean to make you cry Miriam!! It was hard writing it all down but I’m glad that I did now. On our way home and feeling like I’ve been away for months. I have no idea what’s been happening in the world. Thanks for your thoughtfulness and care you’ve shown me during this sad time.

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      • February 7, 2018 at 6:28 pm

        I guess the tears came also from my own memories Deb. Reading your recount brought things back for me too. I hope you’re doing ok, life goes on in the blogging and real world but I wouldn’t concern yourself about it. Your priority is and has been right where it needs to be. xo

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